ビジエイリュウツ - VJ Ryuutsu

RIP, my great-grandma

2012-01-14T23:49:00.006+08:00

She used to talk to me alot, pass me her wisdom when i was young, taught me alot how to look at the world, talk about God, and said no matter what God will always be with me, and i believe now, not only God is with me, She's with me as well

This is the last time i met her... i was REALLY regret that i didnt visit her yesterday, and guess what... i dream about her yesterday night, but now she's gone

She's always smiling, no matter what, when i see her, she always keep on smiling, she's so beautiful, i've never seen her sad face

Even though she keep on forgetting who am i... (as i always keep on telling her im her eldest great-grandchild)
The moment she saw me.. she keep on smiling, hold my hand and say "who r u? so handsome!" and keep on holding my hand looking at me... but i know deep in her heart, she knows and she always rmb me

anyway, i believe its good for both of them, atleast they dont have to suffer anymore, from pain, from anything, no doubt both of u r beside God now, atleast, from now on, no matter how many times both of u keep on forgetting who i am, now both of u can always look and me and realize... im ur eldest great-grandchild

Fully stressed !!

2011-08-18T23:01:00.001+08:00

Still, i need to go on

busy all the time~

2011-06-27T20:18:00.002+08:00

hell!! seriously, i need 48 H/day
for what? make more $ ofcoz
My leader is right! The more stress/burden on ur shoulder, the more $ will be in ur wallet

For those ppl who able to own sports car, own a bungalow, it is bcoz they have more stress than u, they do things which is more complicated than u, so dont be JEALOUS!!
bcoz they deserve to have that

so u want it? STOP COMPLAINING AND DO MORE !!!

Im Back !!!

2011-06-13T18:33:00.002+08:00

Oh hell, about 462 days since my last post!
Its about 1 year 3 months and 5 days XD

But anyway, i just read my post about "live like dying"
its true, just a blink im 462 days away

Lots and lots of stuff happen, and ofcoz i change alot too (maybe) =P

the only thing i havent change... my goal

for sure, i havent achieve what i wanted YET
but still, i dont give a damn, im still going for it no matter what!

that's y we describe it as a DREAM

2010-03-08T22:46:00.003+08:00

我的大名ぷ VJ
我的生日ぷ 6月21号
誰傳給你的ぷ Wawa~
說出五個好朋友ぷ Neon, Alvin, Jeffrey, addy, cherish...anyway still got many
近期開心的是ぷ i'm improved!!
近期壓力大的是ぷ Haven't reach my goal
未來想做什麼ぷ Be a free man~
有沒有喜歡的人ぷ sure got la~
同學會要回去找老師嗎ぷ depands on what teacher...not going to see pn looi... never ever =X
跟誰出去最幸福ぷ` my girl la~
如果你的兩個好友吵架了ぷ Oi~ diam diam la, 吵 lan? -_-
跟情人出去最想去哪ぷ Paris

有沒有起床气ぷ nope~ =X
有幾個兄弟姐妹ぷ 1 bro and 1 sis...biologically
最喜歡的一首歌(女生的)ぷ同手同脚
最喜歡的一首歌(男生的)ぷ用音乐说爱你
喜歡什麼顏色ぷ` white black grey blue
上廁所會不會先沖水ぷ waste water for what -.-
愛不愛我ぷ huh who?
喜歡男生還是女生ぷ for sure girls la -.-
最想大聲說什麼ぷ FUCK YOU!! =X
半夜敢不敢自己上廁所ぷ dare ah~
上廁所會不會脫褲褲ぷ if dont.. how to piss -.-
誰很欠打ぷ keith =X
現在很迷什麼ぷ Heroes of Newerth
睡相很差ぷ i dont know =X
現在的時間ぷ 0909
是否痛恨傳給你點卷的人ぷ ok la~ wont la
體重多少ぷ 70 something...fuck i'm fat
今天天氣ぷ night better... colder =X
你懷孕了嗎ぷ hey dude... i'm guy -_-
你若中樂透最想做什么ぷ use to make more money
大學生一定要玩的活動ぷ clubbing =X
如果能為彩虹添加一種顏色`你選ぷ blue =D

你最討厭的人（限１個）: Nope~ =P
你有沒有喜欢的人：got la
到目前為止，你跟多少人告白過：erm... 3
到目前為止，你被多少人告白過：never XD
到目前為止，你交過多少個男／女朋友：one... yes trust me, ONE
現在有另一半吗：yup~
你最好的同性朋友跟你告白你会怎样：fuck off plz -_-
你初恋情人突然跟你告白你会接受吗：She's the same person
你为什么会喜欢你現在喜欢的人：love doesn't have reason。
你和另一半牵手过吗：sure got la
你和另一半抱或亲过吗：y not wor
你跟异性牵手过吗：my girl lo
是谁，你们什么关系：as i mentioned

现在有人在追你吗？：no.. i think so =X
如果有天，好朋友离你而去，你会: farewell buddy
如果有天，好朋友背叛你，你会：It's ur choice
如果有天，好朋友对你喜新厌旧，你会: bo bian =X
如果你很受不了你的父母，你会離家出走吗: i wanted to do that for a long time =X
你上课認真吗: sometimes only, most of it i will sleepy
你功課好不好: it will be good if i want =X

你开电脑都在干嘛: surfing, check biz status, blogging, check mail, games
你的即时通有多少个同性: many...lazy count
你的即時通裡有多少個異性: same as above

說到正妹你会想到谁: japan -.-
說到帥哥你会想到谁: hmm...no body =X
說到憨你会想到谁: what 憨 means?
說到痴你会想到谁: stanley khoo... crazy 1
說到暗恋你会想到谁: err... dont know
說到出去玩你会想到谁: many ppl leh
說到聪明鬼你会想到谁: myself =X
說到傻子你会想到谁: kura~
說到笑点低你会想到谁: golden fish aka yew kit
說到愛笑你会想到谁: kimiro!!! =X

你的班导是谁: vannaja -.-
你的座位是第几排第几个: who will remember that wor
你最喜欢的老師是谁: Mr Teh!!
你的英文好吗: not bad
你的体育好吗: hmm...long time didn't play basketball
你的数学好么: yup~
你喜不喜欢你的校长: Chin keat~ go dai la
你的学校好看吗: fail!!
你的班級是: Ex-5AC
你的班級在几楼: 4th floor
填后感: dance~ dance~ dance~~

［被选名单］
neon~~
Elaine~
Keith~~~
Kimiro!!
Don!!

2010-03-06T01:27:00.002+08:00

幸福热气球：第一阶段

1.绰号：VJ

2. 星座：双子座

3.生日：89年6月21日

4.兴趣：Music, pc games, swimming

5.血型：O

6.最宝贵的东西：Every1 around me

7. 最讨厌的东西：ants =X

幸福热气球：第二阶段

1.有喜欢的人吗：yup~

2. 有交往吗：Yup~

3.幸福吗：ofcoz~! =D

4. 他很爱你吗：yes!!

5.如果你有勇气最想做什么：tell her dad i want to marry her =X

幸福热气球：第三阶段

1.你被谁点：Wawa~

2.他是你的谁：My spy =X

3.他的个性是：very special...abit sot sot 1, haha~

4.他长得怎样：leng lui~~

5. 跟他认识多久：2 months i guess

6.你想跟他说什么：SPM要加油~!! 还有~ 不要那么讨厌自己啦~

7. 如果他变成你的情人：可能我会不习惯~ 哈哈

幸福热气球：第四阶段

1.最爱的音乐：As long as it's music =P

2. 最爱的季节：冬天

3.最爱的卡通：hmm...dragon ball? O_o

4. 最爱的颜色：White, black, blue & grey

5.最想去的国家：Japan =X

6. 最爱的水果：mango!!

7.最爱的饮料：fruit juice, or anything fancy

8.最爱的人：My girl, my family, my team and every1 around me

幸福热气球：第五阶段

1.你很爱哭吗：hmm...i dont often cry out loud

2. 你很爱笑吗：ofcoz~! =D
3.你是很有信心的人吗：yes!
4. 你想要怎样的生活：I can do whatever i want

5.你喜欢自己吗：yes

6. 你喜欢音乐吗：for sure yes!!

7.你喜欢体育吗：yes but i lazy to do so =X

8. 你喜欢跳舞吗：wanna learn, but maybe not now

9.你很专情吗：comfirm yes!!

10. 你喜欢睡觉吗：who dont like to sleep -_-

11.你喜欢唱歌吗：yes

幸福热气球：第六阶段

开始点名，排名不分先后！

♥ Elaine

♥ Neon

♥ keith

♥ pher
♥ don

如果你有三个愿望 ,

Tell me your wish

1---> gao dim my own biz!!

2---> Healthy life for all ppl around me

3---> i want freedom!!

♪ :: [ Live Like We're Dying ] :: ♪

2010-02-21T04:38:00.004+08:00

Live Like We're Dying - Kris Allen

We really should live like we're dying,
bcoz THERE ARE JUST SIMPLY DO NOT HAVE ENOUGH TIME!!

Try to calculate it...we actually really spent most of our time doing something useless

♪ Traffic jams

♪ Looking for car park

♪ Wait for lift

♪ Traffic light

♪ Queue up for 20% discount

♪ Wait for some1 to come out from public toilet

♪ Travel from city to city

but still, every 1 is doing these

♪
Yeah we gotta start
Lookin' at the hands of the time we've been given
If this is all we got and we gotta start pickin'
If every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
Gotta live like we're dying!

We only got 86,400 seconds in a day to
turn it all around or we'll throw it all away
we gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying!
♪

Sometimes, we really do not know time just pass by, and we wasted it
we just FUCKING SIMPLY WASTED IT MAN!!

If u really minus those things above, and the time u sleep, u bath, u eat, u work, u go to toilet

We actually only have around 2~4 hours to do something else
average...3 hours per day

8 days = 24 hours
gosh...8 days equal to 1 day

56 days = 1 week

240 days = 1 month

2920 days = 1 year

Time is fast huh? It's bcoz u didn't use it well
u just let it pass, that's y, u feel that it's like a wind

Last year is just like a tick tok, gone, forever

a normal healthy person who will like about 80 years and died at 80th

he got 80 years
he got around 960 months
he got around 28800 days
he got around 691200 hours
he got around 41472000 minutes
he got around 2,488,320,000 second

try to calculate, how many sec u left for u life...assume u died around 80

mine? calculated... i left 1,829,952,000 sec

How much is urs?

that's y, we should live like we're dying, live like u'r running out of time

Now that's is when ur life really means, dont waste it

† :: [ Weird CNY ] :: †

2010-02-21T04:07:00.003+08:00

ok first~ I was sick, very sick, dont even wanna move for around....erm 3 days
now let's share my CNY to u guys..

1st medicine
2nd my bed
3rd water...plenty of it
4th 100 Plus
5th My PC
6th Oat Cereal

This is how, i pass my CNY =X
with these, really

then after that, i finally can hang out on 2nd day night, and i still haven't fully recovered yet

then 3rd day, LOL~ where did i go har?

whatever la~ what i remember.... watched 2 movies with my dear
then night.... playing snooker for 4 nights -_-||||

trust me...really

I really didn't go to friend's house to get ang pao, or relative's
NO

Never

I should say...i simply just dont have the chance =X

bcoz i was sick -_-|||

and now i still got cough, cant stop coughing -_-
atleast no more fever, fuck that

But atleast...snooker entertained me \o/

Overall...this year's CNY = Taufu

TAUFU = Totally And Ultimately Fucked Up

† :: [ Sickness CNY eve ] :: †

2010-02-14T02:18:00.003+08:00

Wow~ never have this kind of cny eve b4 XD

y i said that? bcoz i'm sick -_-

I almost slept whole day, and trying to become doctor myself but i failed -_-
Well... i suppose to go out with my girl, have lunch in Sushi king but..
Since i'm sick, cant go out jor T_T

But ~ she still wanna come to my house... take care of me so much
Love u~ ♥

I really feel like smoke coming out from my body...just now at granny's house
i suppose to have reunion dinner but dad ask me to sleep in air-cond room to let me "cool down" -_-
sien...cannot eat

and now i'm full of energy, wtf medicine is that??

† :: [ Non-Halal post ] :: † (18-SG)

2010-02-12T12:50:00.018+08:00

Current post contains disgusting, terrifying, horribly violence scene
If u'r "cot"...plz dont read my post =X
bla bla bla bla~~~

Wee~~

Gone to some places with granny yesterday morning

First we went to Pasar besar~ wondering when since my last step there XD
maybe when i'm still small gua~

First stop was the "pork zone" -_-

arg~~ the fucking pork smells...geli dao~
how to describe... erm~
the smells just like erm...

just like pork -_-

i think this is liver or something like that from pork -_-

This is so called "balitong" XD
y i capture this?
bcoz when i saw that...usually they r dead and served as a dish...but now

THEY R FUCKING MOVING MAN~!! XD

then i realize i should take video...not photo -_-

logic failed

nothing special~ just some vege stalls

wondering...how many ikan bilis here

ikan bilis = 1 life

-_-

next part will be the "Gai Dao" -_- (canto)
saw few poor chicken dead here~ without skin -_-

I was wondering...wtf is this?

then i analyst for a few minute...i found out that's the torso part -_-
without wings and legs XD

Yam gong...but we need it for food T_T

lol~ y i take this malay guy's photo?
coz when he's chopping da chicks, he keep humming songs XD
and his chopping style follow the rhythm XD

And the next part~ we went to 10ten to buy some decoration things~

u know i saw what~?

The peanuts Neon's was selling last few years~ XD

ta~da~~~~

hey Neon...i hope u'r reading this XD
remember this peanuts~? XD

LOL~~ XD

Then da next stop we went to TF...i didn't take much pic there got i was carrying many things -_-

after...i think 1 hour something... we spent about 100 something... not much but
many goods -_-

we almost "full up" the car -_-

ok~ that's it

† :: [ Back to primary~! ] :: †

2010-02-12T11:32:00.030+08:00

Back to 3min primary~~ XD

well~ it has been erm...9 years huh? since my last step on this primary school XD

but da~ didn't saw some teacher i know 1, all of the teachers who attend...i dont even know who the hell they r -_-

u may ask...y i'm here?
coz elaine ask me to fetch her along, and i never been here for long time, so~ come ke po ke po XD

this is another part of da hall~
the registration table

Right side of the hall~ holy shit~!! they built toilets there!!

The field~ still remember i always run here XD

*stalk elaine and her sis*
=X

and that's her sis and she~ *goyang-ing spring* -_-

i admire this 2 uncle!! they "goyang" very fast lo~! XD
plus~ their writing style almost like mine =X
fast like doctor's writing, but still, very nice XD

and again~ 2 uncle

and ladies and gentlements... Let's have a look at elaine's work of ART!! =X

ta~da~~~~

eh~ she got prize 1 leh~ dont "small look" her~ XD
proud of her =P
*clap clap*

and..this is the so call "new male toilet" =X
i haven't been inside XD

and the female's =X

canteen~~~

omg...this basin became like this jor

gosh~~ i miss this class room lo~ XD
huge memories inside here

this is inside of it~ changed alot XD
but da...the cupboard still didn't change lol~
and the tables...

and HOLY SHIT!! The toilet is still that dirty~~ XD

the basin 2~ still so dirty XD

i think this is the center garden..or so called parking lot -_-

corridor~

now let's take a look at da science class

wow...they even have a projector, *clap clap*

Da taman science

Lol this pic still at there

saw that? "Lancau"
just right side of donald's mouth XD

now de kids...dont know think what~ LOL~ XD

and Finally~ the store room

OK enough.. that's all for now -_-

♪ :: [ Love In The Ice - DBSK ] :: ♪

2010-02-06T01:10:00.003+08:00

well...like to share with u all about this song

Everytime i listen to it, it reminds me about 【ЁГаǐЙе の ВгоФ】 LOL~ XD
coz i found this song from her blog, and i like it, thx to her for introducing this song for me =)

*pet elaine*

very soft, adorable, sweet and blissful feeling

I feel relax, ice cold when ever this song played, sometimes abit "gatal" feeling in my heart
even it's cold in the ice, love will warm us
It's a very powerful feeling...
Just like an ice, when there's a crack on it, it will never recover again
all u have to do is melt it and freeze it again,

that's what it means

Every scar in love, it will remains, it never disappear, no matter what u do, trying to recover it
the only way is to break it, melt and put it into fridge again
it's a long process

Try not too create scars for ur love once, bcoz once it does,
it's very hard to let it go, sometimes it will remain forever

Do not hurt her/him....anymore, ever

Sorry

♪ :: [ New me ] :: ♪

2010-02-03T01:11:00.011+08:00

I actually own this hairstyle quite a while...

too busy to take some pic XD

As the title...It's a new year right now
I need new determination, new image, new hairstyle, a new me

to remind myself, What i should DO

♪ :: [ Sry but i really have to do this ] :: ♪

2010-02-02T00:56:00.002+08:00

It's time to replace those who didn't show up, yes i'm talking about YOU, YOU should know who i'm referring to

changed my msn personal msg as above, and i'll use it as a starting line for my blog today

I decided, after i plan my "moves" this month
I will, replace, ALL OF YOU who didn't show up

YOU heard what i said, YOU should know whether it's u, or not
No matter u stop, or doubt, i will still get going
I will not force u to do this, bcoz this is ur own BIZ

and urs are just PART OF MINE
bear it in mind, even without YOU

I STILL CAN DO IT

I will only help those who help themselves, those who dont, sry dude
YOU dont even help urself? Y ask from others?
Have u forgotten the reason u started this?
the reason u sign the form?
the reason u need this biz?
and ur family, friends who r still suffering from working?

BE A MAN
bear everything!

BE AN EAGLE
not a chicken!!

Reminder!!

2010-02-01T01:25:00.002+08:00

OK VJ!!

It's another month again, recall what have u done during last month
and what u haven't

since too tired for today, but it's fun =D

and still...i have to plan, guess i need to do that 2moro, damn tired now

remember the reason!!
remember what u've promised!!
let them witness!!

*punch myself*

tag tag tag~~

2010-02-01T01:06:00.003+08:00

规则：

一被点者请在自己的网志上打上答案

二请传给另外十个人

三传阅人请在这十位被点的人的留言板上通知他，他被点咯!

四这当中的十位不得拒绝

五被点者请注明被谁点了在哪里接到再传给下十位

六这些被点名者，你们被点会祝福，不可回点哦，并且愿望会实现和得到幸福

坐上幸福热气球，开始咯 ~

幸福热气球：第一阶段

1.绰号：VJ

2. 星座：Gemini

3.生日：21 06 1989

4.兴趣：almost everything =X

5.血型：O

6.最宝贵的东西：Family

7. 最讨厌的东西：hmm...ginger -_-

幸福热气球：第二阶段

1.有喜欢的人吗：yup

2.有交往吗：yup

3.幸福吗：errr...yup

4.他很爱你吗：enough... yup

5.如果你有勇气最想做什么：hmm...nothing more

幸福热气球：第三阶段

1. 你被谁点：elaine

2.她是你的谁：kai mui~

3.她的个性是：naughty =X

4.她长得怎样：rocker!! =D

5.跟她认识多久：err...must count meh~? 2 months i guess

6.你想跟她说什么：Always think about the positive part =)

7. 如果她变成你的情人：some1 will 1 on 1 dota with me O_O

幸福热气球：第四阶段

1.最爱的音乐：as long as it's music =X

2.最爱的季节：winter

3.最爱的卡通：doraemon

4.最爱的颜色：black, white, blue

5.最想去的国家: Japan, Alaska, LA

6.最爱的水果: Mango~

7.最爱的饮料：walao...many leh

8. 最爱的人：ok...this is 2 wide, which part first, family? friends? or spouse?

幸福热气球：第五阶段

1.你很爱哭吗：nope =X

幸福热气球：第六阶段

开始点名，排名不分先后！

i really dont have 10 person lo =X

Neon
Pher
Kyoro
Keith
June (sis)

hmm...that's all

Tasks is better more and more!

2010-01-29T05:52:00.008+08:00

Didn't sleep last night, from Ipoh back to TI, then Neon and me, went to kang wu's house

for what? lol~~ HAMPER!! =D

8 bloody hamper in 2 hours...not bad la~

although i'm tired right now but...excited
i like the feeling, and i'm enjoying doing that, even though i didn't sleep XD

well...we design it ourselves...since this is the last minute order O_o

I have more things to do right now, more responsibilities, more likely to be a man =X
I still can hold it!! even if more burden is coming!!
then i will be stronger

i believe that the day will come, it's just the matter of time, i'll wait for it, fight for it

NO MATTER WHAT!

I'll be there...wait for me!!

Project Eagle Graduation

2010-01-27T22:43:00.007+08:00

Hmm...a while since last post, well...quite busy this few days

Hamper....Customers... New IBOs ... follow up

many things to do, i'm tired, but i'm happy =D

Dozen of things happen this few days, First my PE graduation first

Too bad i didn't take pic with David and Jeffress, was too rush on that day
anyway...i really have fun with both of them

Nice to meet both of u =)

well...learnt something how guest speaker, Robert and Lily Yap

man...both of them have their style, but that function..
overall that i wanted to say is

There are no excuse when u r doing anything for this biz

err...cannot hear = deaf
cannot see = ?

-_-

Even a blind person attend the whole Project Eagle program
Even a person who didn't finish standard 6 can do it
Even a "nobody" become "some body"

man, A BLIND PERSON

guys, do u still have any excuses?

A blind 1, he has his dream
he has his vision for his future, even he cannot see

This graduation really taught me many things

and i'm grateful that i attended this function

Thx to Ken Lee for bringing me to this program

and also...my leaders

Simon, Alvin, Addy, Cherish

I still can remember how i feel that day
It's a very important day for me, can say it's my "family Re-union"

Dad, Mum, bro and sis attended, atleast we r all 2gether once again
bringing us together...more closer

even for few hours, i really appreciate it

Althought dad said something negative to me but, i still feel happy =X
i did learn more from him, but i know his style, almost like mine lol~ that's him

still~ no matter what he say, that's for my own good, i knew it

Another thx to my leaders, for bringing my family 2gether

2 bad i didn't take with my bro and dad, lol~ but anyway, still ok la~
next time lo =P

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the next day we went to IoI mall for a short walk

and yes, i went to Popular again =X

dont know y, when i saw this book, i have the feeling...wanna to read it

after i read a few pages, indeed, the things he said inside

BWW did taught me alrdy

i has the feeling that...i'm going to be a successful person
Those winners attitude...most of them i have it, i learnt it

no doubt i will fail!!

and also...biz is doing big right now~ lol~~!
i'm sure this is the best January ever =)

2010-01-21T10:30:00.004+08:00

当你握紧我的手我决定和你走
近来无数的挫折也绝对不退缩
如果连河流都倒流我依然在你左右
一直陪伴你到时间的尽头

就算有一天天和地都会分离
但是我们永远都不离不弃要和你在一起
生命交际轮回里你是唯一不忘的记忆

真正的爱过才算真正的活过
爱你从此绝不会放手
不曾退色的春暮也会有秋天的叶落
痛过哭过也恨过但从未想放弃过

莫问我要理由爱就是我的所有
就算来世你是不变的守候
就算全世界都对着你沉默
也还要紧紧抱着你完成对你的承诺

Originally by Ellson Lee Min Foong

haven't finish yet...

wake up, VJ

2010-01-18T07:19:00.004+08:00

swt~ dont know y, today so early wake up alrdy

maybe i got 2 much things to think about it, many things to do
too much things to consider, too much things haven't been done
it's 18th alrdy, i have to move faster now

Thx to Alvin, he woke me up, it shouted it 3 times, i cannot fail them, and myself anymore
i have still a long way to go, i need to speed up
speeding in this biz wont get any saman right? lol~

i gave a motto for myself, even post it on my wall paper

Think about the reason
Think about those you love
Think about those people around you
Go for it, Dont stop
They NEED YOU

So Here I am, still holding on

腐烂的世界

2010-01-17T00:59:00.001+08:00

电视后面都是虚假的演员
社会的人都是带着面具出街
尤其是那些问你 "小姐能不能捐钱?"
拜托不要再欺骗

让人叹气的世界我快变成夜神月
搞不懂为什么人类还是不懂得改变
这世界的味道就好像公共洗手间
有没有人快来搞定这腐烂的世界

好想给每个人一拳
让他们醒醒看清楚这个世界
好想给每个人一拳
让他们振作不要让他们弃权

穷光蛋的星期天

2010-01-17T00:12:00.003+08:00

太阳像镭射照着我的眼
鸟儿围绕着那天空我洗一洗脸
镜子出现着同样的脸回想着昨天
怎么又是同样的一天?

一天3杯快熟面吃得快要疯癫
我和万字怎么那么没有缘
翻开钱包都剩下点钱
因为昨天请女同事在sushi king吃拉面

好想在我的字典撕掉这词“极限”
连续每天过着空虚的一天
老板的脸简直像大便
好想把他抓到小巷lap麻袋打他一篇

被乌云覆盖的天空雷雨的偏见
雨水像BB枪子弹打在我的脸
看着自己可怜的小绵羊抛锚在路边
我的心声谁能听得见

无奈得看着自己每个月的工钱
过着同样的三百六十五天
到底有没有让我出人头地的一天
用力寻找要美女在我身边

好无聊好无奈没意思的一天
好心虚好无助
这就是穷光蛋过的星期天

untitled lyric

2010-01-14T08:55:00.003+08:00

太阳像镭射照着我的眼
鸟儿围绕着那天空我洗一洗脸
镜子出现着同样的脸回想着昨天
怎么又是同样的一天?

一天3杯快熟面吃得快要疯癫
我和万字怎么那么没有缘
翻开钱包都剩下点钱
因为昨天请女同事在sushi king吃拉面

好想在我的字典撕掉这词“极限”
连续每天过着空虚的一天
老板的脸简直像大便
好想把他抓到小巷lap麻袋打他一篇

被乌云覆盖的天空雷雨的偏见
雨水像BB枪子弹打在我的脸
看着自己可怜的小绵羊抛锚在路边
我的心声谁能听得见...

电视后面都是虚假的演员

too be continue...

Every1 has his/her own stories

2010-01-11T20:14:00.009+08:00

No matter how bad a person was, he/she must have his/her reason y becoming like this

after watching at this new naruto ending, i dont know who make this
but I'm sure that the person who create this video want to send us this msg

Every1 has his/her own stories

There msut be a reason, or something causes the person to become this or that

In this anime, Naruto

Orochimaru, learned forbidden undying jutsu, so that he can learn all jutsu in the naruto world
the reason is, his parents died when he's very young, he wanted to see his parents or as a means of avenging their deaths

Sasuke, after he know that his brother is protecting him, those who watch Naruto, u should know why, that's y he wanted to destroy konoha

Pein, death of his friend changed him, wanted to use pain to teach the ppl to stop killing, he's doing the good thing but, the wrong method

No matter how bad they r, there r a reason

Even thought a people is doing something bad to u, forgive them

This is how human should be

Adrian Helmsley: The moment we stop fighting for each other, that's the moment we lose our humanity.

Guys, learn to forgive

I am, A Healer

2010-01-08T15:06:00.003+08:00

My grandpap, gave me this name

JASON

i google the meaning, for hours

I found out, It really suits my characteristics

I like to help, I like to make ppl happy

This is the meaning of this name i found out

Healer, Lord of salvation

Thx grandpap, love u, even u'r away from us, above us

Dont worry about our family, the day when u'r gone, i knew many things happen

180 degree turned upside-down, maybe this is a test for me

That's y u gave me this name, with a meaning of Healer

U wanted me to heal our family, am i right?

I'm suppose to heal this family, bring all of them 2gether

I promise u, i will bring it back, everything

I guess, this is my destiny, this is y u gave me this name

and i knew, when i'm still a toddler, a kid, U love me so much

If i'm not mistaken, i can still remember

While ur funeral, I'm not crying, i'm not sure
all i can remember is that, u'r inside the casket, i'm looking at u, no tears

or maybe, u know this will happen on our family, u know that this will happen

That's y, U gave me this name, u wanted me

TO HEAL

I'll do it, as I promise

Too all my friends, I will Heal u 2

I will do what i can, no matter how hard ur situation, dont forget something called Love

I suddenly have the inspiration to write about it, while i'm listening to JJ's song,

Love and Hope 爱与希望

and i would like to share with u

當愛與希望投射炙熱的太陽
昨日淚光會隨時間都蒸發
別輕易放棄明天要許更多願望
裝滿了勇氣就更有力量

When Love and Hope, projecting heating sunlight
Yesterday's tear, will evaporate when time passes
Dont give up easily, make more wishes for 2moro
If u have courage, u will have the power to do it

當愛與希望倒映暖暖的月亮
再回頭望又是築好的家鄉
我知道未來還有好多路要闖
我打開了窗看見了晴朗

When Love and Hope, reflecting the moonlight
Look behind, look at ur home, ur family
More barriers, for u to breakthrough
Open ur window, u will see the blue sky

My target

2010-01-08T12:30:00.003+08:00

LISTEN FELLOWS!!

This is what i wanted, and i'll fight for those i want!!

FIRST!!

Sony Ericsson XPERIA X10

SECOND!!

All music instruments!!

THIRD!!

an godlike, unbelievable, dominating gaming alienware laptop and desktop!!

FORTH!!

BMW Vision!!

and Fifth!!

A house i design myself!! [may need some help from elaine =P]

The pic is the house i design recently using the sims 3
it might not my dream house but, temp. first =P

And, that's not all =D

There r still others, this is just the things i want to buy =P

♪ Music ♪

2010-01-06T18:58:00.006+08:00

When u'r listening old songs, some of ur friends will say u'r outdated, or whatever they will say

But for me, It will never outdated
Music is not a fashion

Songs, even thought it's 70s or 80s, we're still listening it bcoz of the melody, the feeling, the lyrics
some songs r meaningful to certain ppl, it may recall something important
The feelings, the memories

it's intangible, sometimes it let u happy, sometimes sad

It will express everything outside from u when u sing it, but most ppl "misuse" it =X

They used it as er...i dont know, it's just very...unacceptable

Nothing goes wrong if u listen to 60s or 70s songs, but some ppl just like to tease about it

somemore, dont just listen

Feel it

I'm still here!! I'm still holding on!!

2010-01-06T13:00:00.003+08:00

I can see, others r quiting, slowly
But if u'r thinking about i'm quiting, NO WAY

Its a race, no matter who's the first or the last 1 to reach there

Once u reach the finish line, u can get what u desire

But what i cant figure out is that, they knew that, but they're standing still
weird huh

I guess, I have the responsibility, I must be a sample for them

I'll bring u guys up, even thought u r not pushing me toward the top
I will still, pull u up

Every1 can become the Winner
the problem is, have u done what winners have to do?
I'll be stand on the stage, let u all to witness

THAT I'D PAID THE PRICE!!

AND I'D GET WHAT I WANTED!!

I'm workin it out

2010-01-02T01:01:00.003+08:00

There might have been a time I would give myself away
Once upon a time i didn't give a damn but now, here we are

SO WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME

Just dont give up, i'm workin it out, plz dont give in, i wont let u down
it messed me up, need a second to breathe, just keep coming around

y dont u just tell me, what do u want from me

It's plain to see, that baby u'r beautiful, and it's nothing wrong with you

It's me, i'm a freak, but thx for lovin' me

Just dont give up

I seldom felt ur love, bcoz of this i might be abit bad temper on u so

that's y

u felt that i dont love u so much anymore

but u'r wrong, i still cant give up on u

while the time i need ur love, u wasn't there, u'r not sending it to me

i keep on endure, and endure

that's the reason i'm starting to become a freak

just remember this...

just dont give up...i'm workin it out

Different year, Different Me

2009-12-31T09:03:00.002+08:00

2009, i've make many different
also, i past it differently, among others

Thx to my Leaders,
Alvin
Ken
Cherish
Addy
Simon

and my Team, and followers
Neon
Jeffrey
Yu Thai
Xuan Yi
Kang Wu
Aries
Vincent
Kock Seng
Jay

And my friends i just met them
Ah Tack
Ah Aun
Voon Jet
Eru
Yan Mei
Stephy
Jeff
Pher
Honda
Peace

This is a meaningful year, for me
Honestly I found out, this is the slowest year for me XD
y? maybe bcoz i've done many things

many decisions has been made
many mistakes has been taken
many lessons has been taught
many first encounter has been broke through
many new friends has been made

ect.

and well, it wont come to an end, we have still another 2010!!

So, I must also have a different year right now

I'll open a BWW center in Teluk Intan, for my dearest followers
and Yes, I'm doing this, FOR U

For everyone

jyane 2009, thx for everything

† Happy Birthday..Jesus †

2009-12-26T04:33:00.003+08:00

Wish - Brian Littrell

For just a moment I wish I could have been there
To see your first step, hear your very first word
Tell me did you ever fall and scrape your knee?
Did you know your wounds would one day heal the world?

For just one moment I wish I could have seen you growing
Learnin' the ways of a carpenter's son
Just a little boy gazing at the stars
But you remember creating everyone

If you passed by would I have seen a child or a king?
Would I have known?

I wish I could have been there
My only wish is to see you face to face
Wish I could have been there
Just to see you Jesus face to face

For just a moment I wish I could have been there with you
You left your footprints upon the way
To walk along beside you and never look away
And just your whisper in the wind and to see you all day

To see you feed the people
To feel your healing in your touch

I wish I could have been there
My only wish is to see you face to face
Wish I could have been there
Just to see you Jesus face to face

To hear you pray in the garden alone
laying down your will with each tear
To see you walk that lonely road
Willing to die for me

And in that moment I know I should have been there
You took my cross you gave your life and you live again
And you live again

I wish I could have been there
My only wish is to see you rise again
Wish I could have been there
My only wish to see you Jesus face to face

Someday I'll be there, I'm gonna be there
I'll see your face, your mercy, your grace
Someday, Someday
I'm gonna see you Jesus face to face

†††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††††

I dont know y, i suddenly have an intention to post this, and it's strange
when i'm doing this post, i feel like crying, and i did
Listening Brian's song, looking at Jesus' face, i cried

I dont know WHY

But i know, JESUS

U ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART

and you keep givin' me joy
you keep givin' me happiness
you keep givin' me hope
you keep givin' me everything i wish
you keep holdin' me up when i'm about to fall
and if even all of that is not enough

YOU KEEP GIVIN' ME LOVE

thx u... Jesus

wee~~

2009-12-25T10:13:00.003+08:00

点名♥

1.你的名字：VJ Ryuutsu
2.所謂的血型：O
3.很棒的星座：Gemini
4.要記的生日：21-6
5.男女人妖：Male - -

*日常生活

6.起床的第一件事：look at my phone
7.愛梳頭髮嗎：Nope
8.愛玩電腦吗：ofcoz ~.~
9.會做家事嗎：seldom
10.有養寵物嗎：Yup, Cats

*衛生習慣

11.是否有口臭：If yes, I use mouthspray =X
12.愛洗澡嗎：if my house got bath tub, i may like it
13.有飯後潔牙嗎：nope ~.~
14.看到桌上很亂會收嗎：NEVER
15.有潔癖嗎：what is this?

*飲食方面

16.一天幾餐：2~3
17.愛吃速食：not really, always eat will sien 1
18.早餐如何：random 1, sometimes good meal, sometimes just roti kosong
19.飯後甜點：never
20.宵夜有否：sometimes

*關於愛情

21.有沒有情人：yup
22.跟他/她的發展: just argue ~.~
23.暗戀過幾個人：3
24.現在還有暗戀的人：no more
25.初戀幾歲(暗戀也算)：hohoho~ standard 4

*朋友人緣

26.有很多朋友嗎：yup, i guess
27.佔有慾強嗎：erm...not sure
28.有很討厭的朋友嗎：seriously...no
29.承上題,你想跟他/她說 : told u, no - -
30.親情友情二選一：family first

*最後結束

31.點你的人是：elaine
32.他人如何：funny XD
33.他有做過讓你生氣的事：not yet, who knows? =P
34.填這份問卷很煩嗎：nope
35.換你點別人了，想說甚麼：just answer, so tha

1. Neon
2. Pher
3. Belle Low
4. Choon hong
5. Irene
6. Kyoro
7. Jaycee

*關於他們

1 號是你的: best friend + partner
2 號人好嗎：goddamn funny guy
3 號有怪癖嗎？: err...dont know lol
4 號是男的女的：male
5 號花癡嗎：err, not sure
6 號是怪人嗎：abit =P
7 號很憂鬱嗎：who knows =X

1. 是谁传給你这份问卷的 : elaine
2. 你们认识多久呢 : err, a month i guess
3. 你觉得他(她)对你來说很重要吗 : yeah!! very!! some1 who always make me laugh
4. 你与他(她)的关系是 : friend =D
5. 你覺得他(她)的個性如何 : ambition-ed, funny, very nice girl
6. 请问他(她)的兴趣是 : joking around with her XD

問 : 當你在更衣室沖水门忽然被打开了
你会答 : WHAT THE FUXK!!

問 : 海中忽然大浪來襲后你发现比基尼小姐上身泳裝被沖掉了
你会答 : err girl...do u need help?

問 : 去海边玩会使用什么交通工具
答 : BMW vision ~.~

問 : 你突然发现沒帶泳裝泳衣你会買
答 : cincai la, dont want triangle enough ~.~

問 : 回去时发现有其他遊客手机沒拿你会觉得是哪牌子的
答 : balckberry

问 : 海边对你來说是
答 : if the water is crystal clear, a very nice place to relax

問 : 看到镜子会不由自主的向前吗??
答 : nope =X

問 : 经常用洗面乳吗?
答 : no XD

問 : 说到自恋会想到谁?
答 : Stephy =X

問 : 有人说该減肥了...
答 : yeah i know

問 : 自恋適合你吗??
答 : erm...nope

KUSO搞怪篇

你常笑么：yup
你喜欢去那里玩：Meet friends in HeroNet, and play l4d2 with fuxkko XD
去玩时喜欢一个人去么：definitely, no
如是假日你都睡到几点：well it depands, lol
今天天气如何：gloomy, that's good, wont so hot
朋友和情人你回选择：my dear
机会和命运你会选择：opportunity!
你很自恋么: no gua
你有穿过耳洞么：not...yet =X
你交过几个男（女）朋友：1

-完毕-

Been forced to answer this

2009-12-22T11:38:00.004+08:00

1.你的名字
VJ Ryuutsu

2.最近最郁闷的事？
Fail to control myself

3.最受不了自己那个缺点？
sometime too serious

4.遇到喜欢的人，你是勇敢表白还是默默关注？
Str8 to the point!!

5.说出点你名的人的3个优点（不可删除题目）
Nice person, very 孝顺, and good sense of humor =P

6.兴趣是？
Singing, swimming & PC Games!! =D

7.你现在最想拥有什么？
Always be together with my dear =P
Financial Freedom, and ask elaine to build and design a room for me to keep all music instrument =X

8.什么时候感觉最开心？
When i reach self-actualization =D

9.恋人/老公/老婆让你最欣赏的优点是什么？
NONE!! I just LOVE HER!!

10.觉得自己的性格是？
hmm...very difficult question
Helpful
Friendly
Like to joke around, almost everything -.-
and
LAZY

11.现在最想做的事？
RUSH TO MY SUCCESS!!

12.接下来最想去的旅行国家或城市？为什么？
Japan!! i wanna see the latest technology and... EAT SUSHI XD

13.你为什么要回答这些问题？
bcoz i got nothing to do

14.你觉得点你的名的这个人是什么样的个性？
i thought i just answer that leh -.-
again...nice person lo, very funny lo XD

15.什么时候觉得孤独？
errr...seriously i never felt that

16.最近一次掉眼泪是？
at moment i just came out from my mum's belly =X

17.请列出喜欢的饮料？
Coke vanila =X
Fruit juice (must peel fresh 1)
milkshake

18.家人还是伴侣重要？
BOTH!! =P

19.春夏秋冬喜欢那个？
winter~

20.你觉得自己五官哪一个最好看？
hmm...nose?

被點名的：--
Neon
Belle
& pher!! =D

Me = No Boundaries lyric

2009-12-18T18:50:00.006+08:00

Seconds, Hours, so many days passed
I knew what i want but i really CANT WAIT
Every moment, i feel that i've found my way
I will always hold every chances, never let it go
Always believing myself, I'm doing the right thing
I has an only reason, allowing me to fight and never walk away

THAT'S Y!! I'M STILL MOVING ON!!

with every step i step closer
every breath is bringing me closer to my goal
I will make it through everything include pain
Sun, rain or thunderstorm
I WILL GET THE THING

Never think that the road is going nowhere
Never gave up on my dreams
Every1 is taking my hand and showing me that I CAN DO IT

THERE IS NOTHING OR WHO CAN STOP ME

I will right until the end
Everyday is getting better and better
I clearly know about my future, where it's heading
NO BODY can bring me down
I've crash every barrier and r've run every line
Risked being save, i always knew why i am doing this!

again, THAT'S Y!! I'M STILL MOVING ON!!

I can go higher, i can go deeper
For me there r NO BOUNDARIES
I will crush everything that makes me slow or stop me

THERE ARE NO BOUNDARIES

Day after day

2009-12-06T12:43:00.002+08:00

Day after day
i've done much mistakes recently, but , all of them r worth
coz i've learn from it
I always try to be perfect, but now i understand, to be perfect
first i have to make mistakes
but i cannot to be perfect, but atleast, i'm near toward perfect =)

Day after day, it will be like the day after 2moro - -
1 day i'll be dead, just the matter when and how
and i was thinking, when i'm dead, i think i should donate my organs to those who need them
with that, i will be always alive =P

also, i love to have ppl remember me even if i'm dead
i mean my name
in order to do this, also, i need to do something to this world
it's mess, i know

I cannot change the world, but atleast, i change myself and i 'm able to change part of it
and that's me, and ppl around me

The world is a mess, all of them should wake up
thx to Roland for 2012, this movie really WARNED US

Day by day, i still have to continue, enjoy my journey
what journey? my life journey

If u still dont understand, well remember this

LIFE IS A JOURNEY

Time for Miracles

2009-11-19T00:41:00.002+08:00

I found this quotes, sharing with u guys, bcoz it is true
from Napoleon Hill

Only when you believe, then only u will make it come true
plus, if u r looking my pages, laughing and say "stop dreaming"

Well i will ignore u, bcoz i knew

"Those who have no dream do not have the right to laugh at those who has"

Life without a dream, u r no human anymore, our world is full of dreams
our technologies
everything

There were no lights, and look what we have, air cond, computers
these r the dream of the past, but now it become reality

For those who r not agree with me, think about it urself, what is the purpose u live in this world
some answer, EARNING MONEY

that's all, nothing else

Now y dont u think about it, if this is ur purpose, which means u better suicide
u got no hope anymore, u should end ur suffering

I DO know, many ppl do not think i will success, but i really dont care
and 1 day, i will prove it, JUST FOR U

I AM, AN

and there r still many of my beloved friends, who also want to be an EAGLE

LET'S HUNT OUR PREY WITHOUT BOTHERING OTHERS!!

FOCUS!!

2009-11-08T22:36:00.002+08:00

ok what is focus?

*google search define:focus*

Easy, concentrate... - -

OK, y did i put this as a title, i mean MY title
coz from now on, I HAVE TO FOCUS

str8 to the finish line, dont care about any other things that block me [for sure cannot use it on da road]

Well, gonna stop all relax from now on, i must reach what i wanted to bcoz

I BELIEVE

seiradnuoB oN

2009-10-12T02:29:00.002+08:00

spell it from da behind XD

I've break through so much recently, after making a final decision to bring myself to my future,
that 1 desire, i've much more free time and i've done something that i didn't

Well, i still have a bunch of supporting friends, even some of my friends r not supportive XD
i dont really blame them, they do what they want, i just done what i have to do
they choose their future on their own, and i choose mine, and take the responsibility about what u've choose

What i do, just like the bottom lyrics

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you've almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

I'm the 1, who will ATLEAST show my hand in front of u and pull u out of what u r not suppose to be
and yet, u r still the only 1 who decide whether to hold my hand or not
i wont regret even if u fall into the well, bcoz i've done what i should do
u jatuh, u punya pasal XD

and also, Love keep's lifting me higher
I believe in the impossible
ages ago, they r no human who can fly, those who believe they can, they will be teased
nowadays, every1 can fly, what u have to do is go to airasia -_-
this is what our ancestor's dream, now it become reality
even, outer space, reaching the moon

and

Those who do not have a dream, you shouldn't tease those who have it, dumbass
If u still do so, y dont u die? u got no more reason to live

there are no boundaries, u can do anything, only when u keep trying without giving up

SUCCEED!!

2009-09-23T00:55:00.001+08:00

First time, involved myself in Product fair, for Teluk Intan and Ipoh

Thx to Ken, Carmen, Simon, Alvin and Cherish for helping Neon and me for opening our market in Teluk Intan

As well, PF in Ipoh is also very successful!!

I've climbed up another step to my destination, what i have to do is keep it going
everything will be fine, dont care about anything that bring me down, drag my footsteps
i will deny everything that slow me down, no matter what, no matter who, so just f*** off!! XD

well, i still have many to learn, I CAN DO IT!

Little Angel - Kenadie

2009-09-09T03:19:00.002+08:00

Kenadie Jourdin-Bromley, known around the world as "the littlest angel", was born Feb.13, 2003, weighing just 2 lbs, 8 ounces.

Doctors were at a loss as to why she was born so small and told her parents this little miracle baby likely wouldn't live through the night. But she did.

She continued to defy doctors expectations and at the age of 8 months, Kenadie was finally diagnosed with primordial dwarfism, a genetic condition that is believed to affect only about 100 people in the world. She isn't expected to grow past about 30 inches or weigh more than 8 pounds.

But from the day Kenadie was born her parents, Brianne Jourdin and Court Bromley, refused to give up. As they say, "We loved life right into her."

Indeed, they did.

Now 5 years old, Kenadie now walks, runs, laughs, smiles and is beginning to talk. But, perhaps more importantly, it's the way Kenadie makes people feel that is her strongest achievement. Those who come into contact with her invariably believe that they have been touched by God, that somehow this little angel has touched their soul.

Above was directly from http://littlekenadie.com/about.php

Gosh, i cant believe it, an angel was born
I was surprise that she's been 5 years old
this is really a miracle

even she, and her family didn't give up, it is really a special give
please, cherish ur life, dont give up

Heaven knows

2009-09-04T01:27:00.002+08:00

I guess many of u guys heard of this song,
this is really a nice song, very comfortable while listening it,
Rick's voice is erm...hard to describe, download and listen it on ur own XD

it's talking about a guy, who is very uncertain about his love once,
and he's thinking about her wherever he goes, man, a very passion guy XD
he's been trying so hard to get close to her
well, the result, heaven knows XD

there's few lines says

"My friends keep telling me, that if you really love her,
you gotta set her free, if she returns in kind,
I'll know she's mine"

well, i did uses this method, and it really work
seriously, it REALLY works

kinda love this song now, lol~

It's been a while

2009-09-03T02:29:00.002+08:00

Time passes so fast, and i'm 20 right now,
i was listening some old songs and it remind me about my 16's life
i still remember i have been very active in 2 forums
and omg, i still remember the name of the forum lol

kzforum
cityofangel

kzforum still exist, but the people i met, they r gone
while cityofangel, totally gone =(

i still remember some of the people in there, yunn, clay, and those who added me in msn only XD
i'm wondering what r they doing right now, and how r they
it has really been a while, they helped me so much

they were the people who really listen to my stories, every page of it,
it reminds me about my old life, chasing a girl, lol
it still reminds me alot of things, that's bcoz i have alrdy forget most of them O_o

Mr. Raindrop~

2009-08-27T17:47:00.002+08:00

Heavy rain this few days, but it makes the day cool and calm,
atleast i dont have to sweat all day long -_-

Wondering what's the reason causes it rain for few days,
God is crying? or..bcoz of Merdeka? O_o
well...only god knows XD

Well...recommend u guys this song =P

Click here to listen

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Mr.Raindrop - AMPLIFIED

Mr.Raindrop falling away from me now
Mr.Raindrop falling away from me now
Mr.Raindrop falling away from me now
Mr.Raindrop falling away from me now

Do u know how much you mean to me
Why must you leave?
I'm just a flower on a tree
why must you leave

Do you know how much you mean to me why must you leave?
I'm just a flower on a tree
Why must u leave?

Mr.Raindrop falling away from me now
Mr.Raindrop falling away from me now
falling away from me now
Mr.Raindrop falling away from me now
Mr.Raindrop falling away from me now
Mr.Raindrop falling away from me now
Mr.Raindrop falling away from me now

BACCHIKOI!!!

2009-08-19T14:25:00.003+08:00

BACCHIKOI!!! (bacchikoi = bring it on!!)

I'd encountered many challenge this month, but it doesn't matter, and it wont stop me
BACCHIKOI!!!!!!!

it has been a long time since my last post lol
well, i cant imagine i've growth along this few months, mentally, but i still have many to learn

no matter what happen, kena bar, kena repeat, kena resit
BACCHIKOI!!!
I DONT SCARE U!!

i like this kind of situation, i'm controlling all the things, and not others
especially myself, i desire freedom, in everything

my main reason to start is to be free
MY NAME IS TO BE FREE!!
and my 2nd reason, my family

now i have to show my responsibility, my organization is getting bigger,
but i still cant stop it, i still have to find quality people to get inside
i surprise Ken purposely called me this morning,
i've been awaken by him today morning -_-

since he called me, which means he has faith and confident on me,
i cant disappoint him, and also Alvin, Cherish, Addy and Simon
besides, my organizations, i have to help them to climb the ladder

well then, i will have to end with this

BACCHIKOI!!!

Morning Rain

2009-07-24T10:16:00.002+08:00

The morning, the rain
A lonely boy is waiting the train
Those people who are walking, they're all the same
Going to work, to get some pay

With that thick cloud, we see no ray
Watching the rain from the window, drinking my milkshake
I hope the rain will stop one day
Or maybe there is a way?

Dream

2009-07-22T00:14:00.000+08:00

Dream

我的梦不会灭不管路多斜
就算遇到风火雨水我要追到中邪
那道墙我要一直撞到它裂
如果没了Dream 我的人生旅程怎么写？

我不想让我的人生就这样了结
坚持要像烧过的铁
被泼冷水再丢进火烈
不要像脆弱的番茄

别再躲在地下铁看不到那宽阔的天
昨天的生活今天不要再重演
为了Dream 就要改变

别再被人群忽略要像公园里的蝴蝶
逃脱那闷热的蛹勇敢得飞翔
有了Dream 才能飞上天

♪ Welcome Home - Brian Littell ♪

2009-07-19T19:32:00.004+08:00

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪
When I left home to be who I am
Some people said no way
But I laid it all down
Gave everything
In my head rang the words
That my father said

You're never far
I will be where you are
And when you come to me
I will open my arms

Welcome home you
I know you by name
How do you do
I shine because of you today

So come and sit down
Tell me how you are
I know son, it's good just see your face

When i look at you
Holding my heart
I will give to you all that I have
Son I know there'll be times
You'll feel all alone
I will share with you
The words my father said

You are never far
I will be where you are
And when you come to me
You can bet I will open my arms

Welcome home you
I know you by name
How do you do
I shine because of you today

So come and sit down
Tell me how you are
I know son, it's good just to see your face

See I've been waiting for that day
Just to feel your warm embrace
Your love has shown
That I will never be alone
For you will welcome me home

I'll forever be
For you will say to me

Welcome home you
I know you by name
How do you do
I shine because of you today

So come and sit down
Tell me how you are
I know son, it's good just to see your face

When I left home to be who I am
Some people said no way

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪

A very meaningful song for me, when everyone is leaving their home
Every father in this world do the same thing, always welcome their children to come back home

How long since u last see ur father? Me?
Around half month, I last saw him was CNY
Father is the one who has responsibility, lots of burden on their shoulder
They're like angels, protecting us from harm, using his wings as shield

Be nice, too our dearest Dad, Papa, or whatever u call him =)

The world is rotten

2009-07-15T22:54:00.004+08:00

Well, this is originally from Death Note, "The world is ROTTEN"
And I'm very agree, our world is totally rotten
War, robbery, raping, children crying, human is the worst creature -_-

I know, i'm a human 2, but i'm not going to save the world or whatever u saw in those drama or anime shows, creating a utopia world?
Sry i dont have that kind of extra-ordinary power -_-
What can we do? all we can do is trying to change black colour into white colour around us
but honestly i like black more than white -_-

Nowadays, human is not a living creature, but a surviving creature
Just like wild animal, rabbit is trying to avoid snake, and snake is trying to avoid eagle
Everyday, live with FEAR
and y do i say so?
This is bcoz of WORKING

If u r only have 1 source to get money, which is WORKING
I'm sure u r surviving, everyday, every week, every year u r doing the same thing, WORK
Did u notice? Everyday u are doing the same thing

Wake up
Wash ur face
Wheat bread + coffee for breakfast
Work
Wack ur boss inside ur mind bcoz u cant do that physically and get home
Wash ur body
Watch TV
www.sex.com -_-
Wipe those dirty things from ur tooth and sleep

Is this what u want? 365 days doing all the same thing?
Man, this is a pain in ur ass, i would die if i do that

And y did i say u live in fear if u r doing these
bcoz, once u stop working, u wont have money to eat, agree?
If u involve urself in an accident, u break ur hand or leg or ur head
go and sleep in the hospital, u cant work
Even worst if u r handicapped
If is y i say u r living in FEAR
Fear that 1 day u become old, or cant work anymore

This is y i said

Gonna be busy

2009-07-04T06:40:00.004+08:00

July, hmm, i will quite busy during this month, many things to do during this month

But recently i figure out, what I do now, is not what I wanted for the future
Just like, I want tomatoes but i'm planting potatoes -_-
what the heck~?

I actually dont like to study, i forced myself to do so, many ppl said
"Wa geng la u!" "How u study 1? Teach me!" "Aiyo u can de, i cannot"
For me, everyone is equal, how much effort u put on something, u'll gain something depands on ur effort
No matter how success a person is, the effort he or she put in is erm...how to describe -_-
But what i'm doing now, i really wanna skip it, i tried to ask myself to study, since i've miss many classes (purposely)
My body wont move -_-
instead, i sit in front of my pc and start playing, Prototype, Burnout, Left 4 dead, GTA IV

I need to change a little bit, mentally, and physically

CUT

MY

HAIR -_-

Feeling Better Now

2009-06-24T08:45:00.002+08:00

Thx to Neon and Gary for reading my blog and leaving some comments, anyway
I wont show that i'm in trouble in my real life, i'll only express my feeling using this blog
If u guys just wanna know what's going on in my heart, feel free to view my blog lol
U guys may see me personally and u wont figure out what's my problem in my heart
i WONT tell u guys unless writing in this blog
I dont like to share my sad feelings and make others to have the same feeling like me
I dont like to make ppl sad, feel free to post comments

Even how down i am, I'll still keep it another part of my mask which no 1 will see that
Well, some kind of Persona i guess

A very much tq for those who celebrate my birthday with me, Eru, stephy, Yan mei, Wai Tack, Ah Pher, Jeff, Tarzan and Piggy Onn, Neon didn't show himself, u'r late, LOL, but it's ok
This is my worst and the best birthday, LOL y i said like this?

Wanna know y it is the worst? Read my previous post, this is my first time, which so many ppl celebrating my birthday, twist
Honestly, the numbers of celebrating my birthday in my life, i can count it with my fingers even i'm 20 now XD

I'm really surprise, the first time i receive a "self-made" birthday card by my housemate, an idea from eru, stephy and yan mei i guess, but it doesn't matter, the whole housemate involved it

Maybe this is what they said, True Friends
anyway, TQ GUYS~~~!

Unhappy birthday

2009-06-21T01:34:00.003+08:00

A very disappointing 20th birthday for me

1st reason, Love
She and me, no more, since she still dont know how to believe in me
I dont think we can continue anymore, even the most simple and important things that a couple should have, Faith
She still wanted to think that I'll mess around with other girls, I told her to be with me
Study 2gether in Kampar, then what's the consequences? Like now, no FAITH
I guess the accumulated time we meet each other is less than 6 month, even though we have been 2gether for 2 years
I'm confused, if she really wanted to be with me, why wont she decide to come with me, instead of choosing that stupid fucking noob school, dont even have assignment, no opportunity to communicate with ppl, that fucking school even approve and give the certificate even though the students doesn't finish the whole course

2nd reason, Family
first, my granny, her leg is injured and i really worried about her
But i dont have time to visit her, but now she's with my uncle, atleast i dont have to worry that she's alone
Next, my dad, I just been informed by him, he's working for 2 jobs
althought, the main purpose he called me was to wish me a Happy Birthday but
I'm not happy, it's not bcoz of he cant celebrate with me
It's bcoz of the present i receive, he's going to bank in some money for me, but I know,
the money i get may cause some problem to him, he may skip a lunch or dinner or whatever,
I dont want to give more burden to him, I'm the oldest, I wanted to share his responsibility
That's y i'm doing this business, it's painful to see him suffer, working so hard

Well, some people maybe have more difficult situation, mine is nothing, but still, i still have to work hard, no matter what happen, 2moro is a new day again
but still, I'm very down right now, even the closest person, she wont be able to understand what i'm facing i guess, she's from a good family
Sigh, better sleep now

Music, my living tool

2009-06-19T11:46:00.002+08:00

Music, it's amazing, a tool that enhance my feeling
No many happy, sad or whatever, it's an enhancement and bring me to a higher lv of my feeling

Recently I jump into a gaming well and i keep swimming inside, i finally climb my ass out of this well after finishing Prototype™
Now i'm standing on the Music field again, BACK TO MUSIC!!

It really helps me alot, on everything, even though sometimes it makes my tear comes out LOL
I'll feel better by expressing my feeling through music, especially high pitching songs, something like 无辜 XD

I believe many ppl know this, but I intended to write this since i wake up this morning, dont know y LOL

Everything happens suddenly

2009-06-06T05:09:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since my last post, i bought a new "game station" (actually it's a new pc)
well i play alot these days, and sometimes, somethings just happen suddenly

First, my result, i never...NEVER expected that kinda of result
Besides, i suddenly become a leader, more burden, but more power XD
I'd started to feel that I'm very different now, the way I meet with ppl, talk with ppl
Sometimes I don't even wanted to talk to ppl, care about them
Now I understand deeper, what is friendship, seriously I don't take friendship so that important

And yet, suddenly, we quarrel, quarrel and quarrel again, I don't know y, I'm frustrated
Is that real? The time bomb is going to explode or what? I'm pissed
So far she still act like the same way, why can't she adjust the way she speak to me, sometimes i feel like I'm a stranger to her, I'm really pissed
Sometimes, when i talk to her, she piss me off, then i started to feel "xi beh sien"
quarrel everytime, dont know how much a month, i don't feel like want to talk to her anymore,
it only get even worse, i'm starting to be like Does, lazy singing style, being lazy..Dontennn no..michiwo, kasa wo wasureteeeee~
I don't know what should I do, end our relationship or what, i have to consider many things

Well, i suddenly know how to play the early part of Psi-Missing in piano, thx to neon for teaching,
And i just found out that my hand is too small -_-
i cant change that but i can do more practice, i'm starting to get myself involve in many things, and yes, suddenly involved

Man, life should run like this way i guess, or whatever, i dont know, sometimes everything just fucked up together

Holyshit, 0534 lol, i'm going out at 0700 for basketball, haven't sleep yet, maybe i should sleep after playing, LOL

HOLY MOTHERFUCKER =X (sorry for bad language)

2009-05-23T12:08:00.002+08:00

honestly, HONESTLY, i really dont expect this to happen, every subject i use the day b4 that paper to study, most of the answer, i used my own words to do it
now i can confirm that, my study method is the correct 1, read the main point, the terms
then use my own words to describe, i think that's what they wanted from us

but i still feel kinda lucky this time, but if i put more effort on it, honestly i may get A, i really didn't take good use of my talent, LOL
well, i better go and wash myself up, i just wake up, i haven't take any breakfast yet -_-

yos... run away

2009-05-02T15:38:00.002+08:00

yos.. *ni ge ro*
i finally finish my year 1 sem 3
well come of u may not understand my title and that phase i mention
it's actually from Gintama episode 50
here it goes

well obviously he's leaving his "nakama" -_-
and he become

YES!!!

2009-04-26T00:57:00.002+08:00

yos! I have another IBO now XD
i can see it, even able to imagine it, my group, my team, the number is getting more and more
now i'm going to have a wider span of control, LOL y am i mixing Organizational Behaviour with this XD

some ppl may not but some ppl will notive that i'm evolving into zerglings, LOL no more starcraft plz
whatever, all i know is, i'm a little closer to what i desire, what i wanted... *imagine myself curving bullet*
they r right, no matter how many negative response i receive from other, without them, my team is still growing, even though they didn't join me
and still, i have to find more ppl, and slap them from sleeping in this stupid TAUFU negative environment, i want to give hope to others

GAMBATTERU YO!!

ps :: TAUFU = totally and ultimately fucked up
god create this XD

DAI KEN DA~!

2009-04-07T08:52:00.002+08:00

dai ken da...honto ni dai kenda!!

a re...week 6?!!
do shuru...DO SHURU!!
2 more weeks, another sem again, i'm going to year 2 T_T
i still haven't start my revision, better do it from now on

i hope i wont fail any paper this sem, arg i dont want resit
wish i can pass all, and get higher CGPA
yos.. gambaru kuda sai
or...i should say

TAS KE DE KU DA SAI!!

My Class

2009-04-01T08:11:00.003+08:00

I was really bored and da, i took a few pic about my class
and i try to tell their names and i fail to do it all XD

After death..?

2009-03-17T23:54:00.002+08:00

I just finish bathing, while doing that in da bath room, i was thinking
what happen to the soul after a person is dead?

the soul will go to heaven?
reborn and become another person?
the soul will hang around the world and wait for Shinigami and fetch us to SeiReiTei?
the soul will transfer to a hollow?
or...the soul will attend the court and decide to heaven or hell,
if heaven, will i meet Kaio? O_o

well no 1 can answer this, anyway which 1 is the truth?
if i reborn and become another person, man that will be fun, trying different lifestyle, born in another type of family, erm maybe different gender? XD
will i have the face that i'm having now? or a different 1?
which mean i have to start over again, from a baby
man this sucks, i have to learn everything all over again sigh

Tmnet, ur marketing strategy wont work longterm

2009-03-11T08:41:00.004+08:00

I've learned something from TM "nuts"

Well my housemate and i sign up the RM 110 combo package, bcoz of the free modem
and now i really regretted for signing that stupid package
yes they give us the modem, free
but about the modem, i just have to sigh, for ur info it's a riger DB102
it always hang during the midnight, and disconnected very often
i phone TM and ask them for solution, then they changed the modem to billion

and yet, the problem is still there, disconnect, disconnect and disconnect
after my previous sem break, 1 of my housemate told me they've totally disconnected and fail to connect it, even they restart the modem for dozens time
after i came back for sem 3, i phone them, and viola, they give me back the riger modem again

well TM CEO, if u r reading this, i have to advise u, ur company is no longer in a monopoly market, look at celcom broadband
they have wireless and the speed is incredible fast (thx to ah pher for testing)
i know they r only for certain area but at least their service is BETTER THAN U
U've try to attract us to sign the combo package using the free modem method
but u didn't even wanted to service us, u got no "after-selling service"
plz go back to college or U to study about marketing
Maybe u've earn much from those firms who apply wire phone from u and u dont care about us
ok fine, u'll still lose some businesses from those families

I've learned from u, short term marketing strategy wont work, ur image is alrdy BROKEN

Internet Provider Fail

TM Nuts

7 week?!

2009-03-08T02:38:00.004+08:00

Man, i'm in da 3rd sem now, hmm...i'm alrdy here for almost 1 year
while i think of it, last year of this day i was playing Cabal Sea XD

well that's kinda fun, man i miss my guild, xtreme tactical
there are still some names i remember, Yumisen, Rainn, Kumi, Steven, Trans, Slyphia, Cyberic, Eternal, MoMoChaCha, kimura, storm, zdas, Tidal...
guys i miss u all XD
well i forgot the name of our guild leader =X
buti do remember the nickname...Jackfruit XD

We do many things 2gether, lvling, war-ing, questing, even doing stupid things like dancing in Desert Scream while we naked XD

The pic above, we r actually trying to combine our BM2 skills together, and it looks great =D

But da, well they r not playing Cabal anymore =(
i just login Cabal, press G, no 1 is online

Some of them i have thier msn, yumi, steven, the others i didn't ask them
My fellow guild members, If u'r reading this, FOR GOD'S SAKE GIVEME UR MSN XD

Result released

2009-03-03T17:23:00.002+08:00

Phew, i wasn't expect Econ will be A -_-
I expect i'll fail FOA and BIS but da...WTF?!

well this time no more ABC, only AB XD
now that's the ticket, *celebrate*

SEM 3!!

2009-02-28T18:05:00.000+08:00

Hell yeah that's a nice idea, holy lol look at Ishida XD

Well sem 3 starts, finally, 2 more days and i can get my previous exam result
i'll be celebrating or cry out loud like Loius? "GET IT OFF ME!! GET IT OFF ME!!"

Man i like that sound actor XD

Time Machine?

2009-02-23T03:49:00.001+08:00

Well i'm going to react like red ranger, sem 3 starts next week

i played alot, i even feel boring to play anymore, i played 2 much XD
first finishing P4, now P3, ok a new target, finish P3 FES b4 sem 3 start

I went to Hero 2 much i guess, now i dont fell like wanna play l4d anymore
should concentrate on my P3 =P

A time machine? yeah i need 2, but i dont wanna use it to go back to the past, but the future
Besides, what's the point going back to the past, we have to accept what we've done, and face our choices we made, things may change if we go back to the past, it may erase our existence

Instead of going back to past, y not future?
Look what happen to us at the future, if it is not what u want, then do something else for NOW to change it, correct our choices

Man what am i thinking these fantasy -_-
well time machine WONT exist, holy shit i'm talking bullshit

Cross dressing event in P4

2009-02-10T03:04:00.000+08:00

I found out there's a funny event in P4, a cross dressing event, thx to Yosuke, LMAO
Ok i'll put all the pic below

and now the First, Yosuke Hanamura first

Ok now after cross dressing

XD

Next would be Teddie, man he really looks like girl in this kind of look
This is Teddie, in human form, handsome huh?

after changing...

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and final, Kanji Tatsumi XD

He looks like gangster huh? And yes he act like a gangster

and what will happen is he change into girl's cloth
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LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Untitled

2009-02-10T03:00:00.000+08:00

Well, it's been a while since my last post.

Finally, I'm going to finish P4, ALMOST
Just 1 more boss, then i'm on for TOL English version, muahaha

I still have about 3 weeks for my holiday, wonder will i finish TOL in this days
I decided not 2 work for this sem break [probably 2 lazy]
I must play enough then study hard next sem, lol

Oh yeah, i upgraded my laptop ram from 1.5gb to 3gb, man that's a big different
It's fast while loading the window, i'm proud or it, lol
cost me rm80, quite worth, thx to Ah hong

Hoover's Steak, Recommanded

2009-02-04T13:32:00.000+08:00

I went to Hoover to have lunch with my mum, sister and aunt, man it's been a long time since my last visit
I never have steak for a long time, for my own sake i order a sirloin steak and OMFG!!

This is the REAL medium steak, compare to Lana's, Lana u sucks

The pic, actually i ate half of it, the size should be double lol

It wasn't so delicious but that's the real medium steak, unlike others. I order medium and those suckers gave me full cooked, it was like, "Am I eating a rock?"

Lucky day

2009-01-31T11:57:00.001+08:00

Phew, won around 20 bucks in D Gay man's house. =D
ok, enough gambling, no more.
Since this is the first time I be the banker, not bad, LOL!

Actually I did not won, just won back the money i lost LOL
whatever, it's enough, no more gambling

ok, new year season is going to end, guess i have to do something, Persona 4 or part time? O_o
think about it later, i didn't even count my ang pao money yet

Boring CNY

2009-01-29T10:23:00.000+08:00

man, kinda boring nowadays.
CNY? So what? It's still the same as usual -_-
For me it's really nothing special, we are still doing the same thing every year.

I went out fewer than last year, compare to last year, honestly i just dont really like it, going everyone's house and sit for about half an hour, get red packet, leave and go to another houses, so i decided not to do that this year, lol.

But da, I still love the food, especially by granny, since they dont want granny to be exhausted, Shio Cha is cooked by aunt Jenny, and they bought the chicken soup, it's nice too.

I cant stop eating, holyshit, i better stop it or either go for sports. Since no swimming pool in TI, guess i better stop eatting like a werewolf, and becoming a boomer. XD

ビジエイ リュウツ - VJ Ryuutsu