Morning Rain

The morning, the rain
A lonely boy is waiting the train
Those people who are walking, they're all the same
Going to work, to get some pay

With that thick cloud, we see no ray
Watching the rain from the window, drinking my milkshake
I hope the rain will stop one day
Or maybe there is a way?

Dream

Dream

我的梦不会灭 不管路多斜
就算遇到风火雨水 我要追到中邪
那道墙 我要一直撞到它裂
如果没了Dream 我的人生旅程怎么写？

我不想让我的人生就这样了结
坚持要像烧过的铁
被泼冷水再丢进火烈
不要像脆弱的番茄

别再躲在地下铁 看不到那宽阔的天
昨天的生活今天不要再重演
为了Dream 就要改变

别再被人群忽略 要像公园里的蝴蝶
逃脱那闷热的蛹勇敢得飞翔
有了Dream 才能飞上天

♪ Welcome Home - Brian Littell ♪

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When I left home to be who I am
Some people said no way
But I laid it all down
Gave everything
In my head rang the words
That my father said

You're never far
I will be where you are
And when you come to me
I will open my arms

Welcome home you
I know you by name
How do you do
I shine because of you today

So come and sit down
Tell me how you are
I know son, it's good just see your face

When i look at you
Holding my heart
I will give to you all that I have
Son I know there'll be times
You'll feel all alone
I will share with you
The words my father said

You are never far
I will be where you are
And when you come to me
You can bet I will open my arms

Welcome home you
I know you by name
How do you do
I shine because of you today

So come and sit down
Tell me how you are
I know son, it's good just to see your face

See I've been waiting for that day
Just to feel your warm embrace
Your love has shown
That I will never be alone
For you will welcome me home

I'll forever be
For you will say to me

Welcome home you
I know you by name
How do you do
I shine because of you today

So come and sit down
Tell me how you are
I know son, it's good just to see your face

When I left home to be who I am
Some people said no way

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A very meaningful song for me, when everyone is leaving their home
Every father in this world do the same thing, always welcome their children to come back home

How long since u last see ur father? Me?
Around half month, I last saw him was CNY
Father is the one who has responsibility, lots of burden on their shoulder
They're like angels, protecting us from harm, using his wings as shield

Be nice, too our dearest Dad, Papa, or whatever u call him =)

The world is rotten

Well, this is originally from Death Note, "The world is ROTTEN"
And I'm very agree, our world is totally rotten
War, robbery, raping, children crying, human is the worst creature -_-

I know, i'm a human 2, but i'm not going to save the world or whatever u saw in those drama or anime shows, creating a utopia world?
Sry i dont have that kind of extra-ordinary power -_-
What can we do? all we can do is trying to change black colour into white colour around us
but honestly i like black more than white -_-

Nowadays, human is not a living creature, but a surviving creature
Just like wild animal, rabbit is trying to avoid snake, and snake is trying to avoid eagle
Everyday, live with FEAR
and y do i say so?
This is bcoz of WORKING

If u r only have 1 source to get money, which is WORKING
I'm sure u r surviving, everyday, every week, every year u r doing the same thing, WORK
Did u notice? Everyday u are doing the same thing

Wake up
Wash ur face
Wheat bread + coffee for breakfast
Work
Wack ur boss inside ur mind bcoz u cant do that physically and get home
Wash ur body
Watch TV
www.sex.com -_-
Wipe those dirty things from ur tooth and sleep

Is this what u want? 365 days doing all the same thing?
Man, this is a pain in ur ass, i would die if i do that

And y did i say u live in fear if u r doing these
bcoz, once u stop working, u wont have money to eat, agree?
If u involve urself in an accident, u break ur hand or leg or ur head
go and sleep in the hospital, u cant work
Even worst if u r handicapped
If is y i say u r living in FEAR
Fear that 1 day u become old, or cant work anymore

This is y i said

Gonna be busy

July, hmm, i will quite busy during this month, many things to do during this month

But recently i figure out, what I do now, is not what I wanted for the future
Just like, I want tomatoes but i'm planting potatoes -_-
what the heck~?

I actually dont like to study, i forced myself to do so, many ppl said
"Wa geng la u!" "How u study 1? Teach me!" "Aiyo u can de, i cannot"
For me, everyone is equal, how much effort u put on something, u'll gain something depands on ur effort
No matter how success a person is, the effort he or she put in is erm...how to describe -_-
But what i'm doing now, i really wanna skip it, i tried to ask myself to study, since i've miss many classes (purposely)
My body wont move -_-
instead, i sit in front of my pc and start playing, Prototype, Burnout, Left 4 dead, GTA IV

I need to change a little bit, mentally, and physically


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HAIR -_-

Feeling Better Now

Thx to Neon and Gary for reading my blog and leaving some comments, anyway
I wont show that i'm in trouble in my real life, i'll only express my feeling using this blog
If u guys just wanna know what's going on in my heart, feel free to view my blog lol
U guys may see me personally and u wont figure out what's my problem in my heart
i WONT tell u guys unless writing in this blog
I dont like to share my sad feelings and make others to have the same feeling like me
I dont like to make ppl sad, feel free to post comments

Even how down i am, I'll still keep it another part of my mask which no 1 will see that
Well, some kind of Persona i guess

A very much tq for those who celebrate my birthday with me, Eru, stephy, Yan mei, Wai Tack, Ah Pher, Jeff, Tarzan and Piggy Onn, Neon didn't show himself, u'r late, LOL, but it's ok
This is my worst and the best birthday, LOL y i said like this?

Wanna know y it is the worst? Read my previous post, this is my first time, which so many ppl celebrating my birthday, twist
Honestly, the numbers of celebrating my birthday in my life, i can count it with my fingers even i'm 20 now XD

I'm really surprise, the first time i receive a "self-made" birthday card by my housemate, an idea from eru, stephy and yan mei i guess, but it doesn't matter, the whole housemate involved it

Maybe this is what they said, True Friends
anyway, TQ GUYS~~~!

Unhappy birthday

A very disappointing 20th birthday for me

1st reason, Love
She and me, no more, since she still dont know how to believe in me
I dont think we can continue anymore, even the most simple and important things that a couple should have, Faith
She still wanted to think that I'll mess around with other girls, I told her to be with me
Study 2gether in Kampar, then what's the consequences? Like now, no FAITH
I guess the accumulated time we meet each other is less than 6 month, even though we have been 2gether for 2 years
I'm confused, if she really wanted to be with me, why wont she decide to come with me, instead of choosing that stupid fucking noob school, dont even have assignment, no opportunity to communicate with ppl, that fucking school even approve and give the certificate even though the students doesn't finish the whole course

2nd reason, Family
first, my granny, her leg is injured and i really worried about her
But i dont have time to visit her, but now she's with my uncle, atleast i dont have to worry that she's alone
Next, my dad, I just been informed by him, he's working for 2 jobs
althought, the main purpose he called me was to wish me a Happy Birthday but
I'm not happy, it's not bcoz of he cant celebrate with me
It's bcoz of the present i receive, he's going to bank in some money for me, but I know,
the money i get may cause some problem to him, he may skip a lunch or dinner or whatever,
I dont want to give more burden to him, I'm the oldest, I wanted to share his responsibility
That's y i'm doing this business, it's painful to see him suffer, working so hard

Well, some people maybe have more difficult situation, mine is nothing, but still, i still have to work hard, no matter what happen, 2moro is a new day again
but still, I'm very down right now, even the closest person, she wont be able to understand what i'm facing i guess, she's from a good family
Sigh, better sleep now